So of late I have been going out for a drink or two with the ladies from work. It has been lots of fun *sometimes I could hang back a bit on the dance moves. Naturally I've met more Expats by going out in the last two months than I have in the other 8. At some point or another one expat might mention dinner to me (No, thank you!) or make an unnecessary comment. I guess I was at a bar so this is to be expected. None of these guys are real candidates to take home to my family but sometimes I do just check in my head..."Would my brothers be able to have a long standing decent conversation with them?" Hopefully some kind of relationship in whatever shape or form.
I guess what I am saying is that a bar is not the place to meet someone but these thoughts do run through my head. Again I want quality and someone who would be a life partner in whatever time frame that takes.
At the moment I sort of feel like a fish out of water. A Christian in a Buddhist society. A Christian single girl meeting ungodly men. Even in church I am struggling to find my voice or expression in a way that is heartfelt and authentic. I am not sure where I want to be next or where I will be next and this may all seem dramatic but I guess the world is my oyster-excuse all the ocean similes.
I'm also learning to go with the flow... Sometimes God is more in the flow than we realise.
Just thoughts from my inward wondering/s.
Blessings,
Sarah
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